private eye

eyelids drawn back in a state of numbness
delusion
too many toxins in my blood today

i’m awake and aware
this room is dark and muted
brain slugged up with soupy software
glossy eyes gaze before me
a part of me and this screen
this scene is killing slowly
below me are these feet
firmly planted on the ground

i’m obliterated
annihilated but accepting
exhausted but still ticking
my fingers picking every key specifically
clicking, tapping, pushing
return
return
late night privacy
private eye ecstasy
kiss me
you fool

on my knees
in an obsequious manner
scorned but wanting more